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Let me just get this freaking situation straight. How is it that I am perfectly available to reply his message while he takes his blissful time to do so? Eh, 2toes tak perlu lah nak buruk prasangka sangat, dia sibuk. WTF is sibuk? Cbuk? Busy? Bz? Haha. Very funny tho. Its like saying that you need to end the conversation as soon as possible because you are bz and cbuk. Go ahead. Just wait till I am busy. Dont worry, honey, I am not like that. I push that sort of bz and cbuk notion just to be with you. To make you feel special because you are. Sadly, what you did all these time makes me wonder again and again if I am one of your VIP priorities. Maybe I am not, yet you have confessed repetitively how deep is your love for me. Honey, I dont understand your kind of love, the one that makes me feel neglected sometimes. Am I asking too much? I know that you are loyal and caring but honey you do have something on the side. A mistress, your freaking kryptonite; WORK. She was so freaking demanding, I cant even win that fight coz I am the bad guy in your DC Universe. We texted just now, I thought, 'Owh babe, you are awake, bright eyes and bushy tail. Oh, we are going to talk for awhile'. Haha. F*ck no. It was brief just like a roll call in which we outlined what we will do. Its like running to a checklist, you got this tick*, i got that tick*. Owh yeah, just realised his text about going to see his family in the evening. Okay. Should I be happy? Okay, I can be happy. Somebody draw something on this smiley, 😶. I read a book about the personality of our dear Propeht SAW and his companions. I do envy Abu Bakr, he is one patient man. How can you be so furiously angry and not a single twitch of rage reflected on your face? I say this companion has the patience of a rock or an asteriod. The book mentioned that you can choose to be upset or you can choose not to be. I did that before, and it was freaking awesome. Freaking awesome coz it works. I was like what those orang put say, a freaking Buddha Dalai Lama sort of patience. The trick is when something upsets you, for the mere 1-2 seconds of emotional reaction, you make the choice either to be mad about it or just chill and move on. I should try that some time. I will be so freaking cool like a cucumber, i might have slices of that round-watery vegetable around my freaking eyes and drinking a glass of cold Sunkist Tropical. Lol, thats me being chill when I found out my Golden Chariot was scratched and bumped multiple times. Sabr..sabr.. I should keep my surprising unpredictable demeanor instead. That is what gives my conviction more impact. Yeah, I am heartless unpredictable b*tch. This girl aint for the fainted heart. This girl needs a heart of steel with the core of fluffy-ness inside. Are you in, honey? Let's get this joyride a spin, you will see if its worth your time.