Sometimes.. When nobody bothered to come to your blog.. you can just say what ever you want to say... Now 2toes will say what ever she wanted to say because nobody cares anyway.. I don't want to be popular nor i want to be known... Before this i feel inferior to all people that i ever met and never really see what i am worth for.. today.. i want to talk about self-worth.. Because nobody see this post.. this post will be a reminder for myself and myself only.. If you are not me.. Get your darn eyes off my blog.. I really mean it...
Self worth is when you appreciate yourself without condition.. but don't get the wrong idea.. it does not mean narcissist or anything.. when you feel good about yourself you will do better in life. Wanna know why? WHY???
When you feel good about yourself:
1) you will know what you are bad at and know how to overcome it..
For example: I know that I am not good in writing essays (well, essays sucks in many different ways!! >o<); so, i will force myself to look at my assignments everyday till I got the chill down my bone. Wanna know why??? Cause i tend to get nervous when there are a lot of works to do and i will start doing it.. Another thing i would do is to make a mark at my wall calender of the due date for those assignments.. BELIEVE ME!!! This one works.. I will surely sigh and open up my assignments sheets...
2) You will know what you are good at....
For instance: I know i am good at singing and making jokes (bad jokes actually, people dont laugh anyways...). therefore, i will sing whenever there is an opportunity.. (hey, i am a 'yes' girl, i never say no to singing), so i sing.. yesterday i got the news that i am invited to sing a song for the Bersatu games.. but it is just a recoding.. however, the problem starts with the word recording ;;;;;; I am not good in singing in a recording session. My voice sucks compared to my sister... (i look up upon her eventhough she can be such a pain to my jelly heart and creamy brain)..i am quite harsh and everyone can prove me right..whenever i sang...;... therefore, i am now (not officially) training my voice and listen to some of my recording songs in youtube.. (bapak uploaded them there.. find Suara Marhaen that's the name of the group). I think i will get better after the esther break.
3) You know what to do when you are down...
Let's take an example when i feel bad about not having any boyfriend while all my sisters have (except You-Know-Who; we're in the same league..so, YEAYYYY!).. i will go to a chat room and play around with peoples emotions.. that's fun..; the word 'play around' must be taken metaphorically.. I just chat and make myself feel important because people will buzz you for a talk in a few minutes.. you wont have to worry..Sometimes, when i am feeling down, i would just go to youtube; thanks to the internet connection here, and search for a good romantic comedy movies or cartoons.. if not i will burn my eyes reading comices in One Manga... if not, again, i will just go out and have a fresh sight seeing walk to Albert Park or Auckland Domain... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! What a life that is...
4) you will know how to control your bad behaviour (well i am still working on it!!! Arghhhh!)
I know i am a bad tempered person.. especially when i am in my most worst mood.. (notice the word 'most'; i know i am exaggerating but it's true and anyone is well informed of that)... at that time.. i won't talk to anybody because i know i WILL tend to upset them in many ways... to make it more worst-worst, i am not really good at apologizing unless its in the internet via instant messaging or emails... (mano-a-mano apologizing is the best actually and i myself would only accept a face-to-face apology.. but still, i am not choosy too..again, it depends)... For me, the best is to keep quite and at least tell somebody that you are not in the good mood and paste something on your head saying "I am UNDER THE CLOUDS, right now!!!" or "STAY AWAY!! a VOLCANO is ERUPTING"...or something like that.. i think the aucklanders would understand the latter... (FYI: Auckland city is situated directly on top of a active volcanic areas...)
Ok... i think that's all i can say about self-worth. Don't LEAVE ANY COMMENTS AS YOU WANT TO...I WOULD not REPLY THEM IN ANY WAYS... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
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